Well it has been a fascinating month or so…and I am in
that strange ‘between’ place in which the new things I am working on have not
fully taken shape, while most of the clients I still had in the aftermath of
the accident have completed their coaching.
At the end of May it will be two years, and I am still dealing with the physical,
emotional and financial fallout, though I will say that I am finding ways to
amuse myself and stay optimistic-excited, even- as I forge ahead.
Take the last ten days for example…I woke with a sore
throat on the day I just ‘happened’ to have a follow up doc appointment and
discovered I had strep. Yippee. Fortunately, though I have had bad reactions , the
antibiotic I was given only had one um, glaring side effect… I had
the worst gas –ever. Really, every time I sneezed, coughed, rolled over, bent
down, reached for something, or blew my nose- I farted. It became
hysterical. Even though I didn’t get
much done, I was definitely entertained by my own toot-fest, and got
through the week with the help of side splitting giggle fits, that followed the
long notes of my musical affliction. (assfliction?)
Anyway, though I generally don’t “Toot my own horn” as it were, (sorry)
I’m going to share a little of my inner process with you because the new
direction I'm heading is very exciting. Multiple dreams,
articles, synchronicities, conversations, books, symbols and intuitions have been
guiding me on this journey…and yet there is always the struggle to let go of
the old and take on the new. I have spent wondering
if I ought to just stop what I’m doing period. No more coaching. Work for somebody else. (Ha!) Then my mind clears
and I realize that I simply must come to a complete stop before heading in a new
direction. And so I have.
I am stepping into my life as a Crone, a Grandma, a
Wise Woman- and as such I feel called to help restore some measure of balance
to the lives I touch and the communities I am part of. To consciously and
deliberately help women and men
disentangle from the societal pattern of fear and gender based domination and
return to compassion centered relating and problem solving.
I am being guided and educated ... seeing how we unwittingly participate in the very things we say we
loathe, and learning to create clear steps that we can take in our lives, families
and communities to make a real difference. We can change our society for the better
and restore a measure of hope to the future.
That’s what I want to do. That’s what I am going to do. And I can’t do this by myself. I am
partnering with a like-minded talented friend to co-create communities of
support, workshops and much more…. I also invite YOU to join me. The first
workshop that will be coming in July. Stay
tuned for more information coming soon.
And next time you toot...feel free to think of me and laugh!
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